All things by design

Tomorrow that face of the United States as we know it will change. Will my world end when I wake up tomorrow to the new face of my country?  No, I do not believe it will unless my time on this beautiful planted has ended. This is something that many people did not think would happen but it did. So many factors are going to change tomorrow. This is very scary to think about. I can`t make a informed decision about anything without know the vast majority of the story.  The clock is ticking towards tomorrow. Will my fight be any different? I can not say. My fight has always been different not just for the color of my skin but for the gender I want born. I have to prove myself on many levels. Many have preconceived notions about me just when they see me. There is tomorrow the day so many are wanting to undo and change so that they can make it not happen. I will not lie and say that I am not worried about what tomorrow will bring. I am seeing so many things that are not in a good light for m

Alright, for the moment my blog is taking a serious turn. I am talking about real life issues and how to work through or at least what has been working for me. What do you do when something disappointing you? What is your feeling process? I have been faced with some disappointing things in my life. While for some you wouldn`t say that its a disappointment at all but it is my fault I didn`t try hard enough. To those people while I respect the fact you have your own opinion but you are not me and have no idea what it took to get to that point. I would say the hardest disappointment to over come to over come is when you are disappointed  in yourself. I am on the up hill battle of that one. I was so mad and disappointed in where my life is compared to this hypothetical idea I created in my head when I was younger. Also when I didn`t get into the school I wanted to take the final step in my education.  I blamed myself over each point as I combed over every detail. To me the first step on my