COVID-19

This is our reality. Many all over the world it has hit hard and it is spreading like wildfire.  As I have said before I will be making these posts to update and keep a record of events that are happening. Many said that 2019 was one of the worst years ever. It turns out 2020 is giving it a run for its money. Many lives hang in the balance or have already been lost. It seems most of the world has shut down. It comes in waves of shelter in place. So many places have been on lockdown. Many are without work while others are working overtime as they are essential. To which they have always been but we never gave them their due. I have reached the point of uncertainty. I am not sure how long my job will keep paying me. I am not sure when I will go back to work. Unsure of when life will go back to what it was. I know it is forever changed. Nothing is the same and no one knows for sure what it will bring. I know my family and I are adapting as well as we can.  The days seem to blend together and I have lost time. I no longer know what day it is as I based my days on if I went to work that day. I know I should make myself a schedule to keep. I am sure that would be better for me. I no longer hear the alarm I have set. I sleep right through. I need to change my pace but this is my reality. I got to see my friends via zoom last night and it was wonderful. I miss them as we did not get to work together at the faire we do every year. I say one of my coworkers the other day too when I was coming home from the store. She lives near me and I asked her to come outside so that I could wave as I drove by. This is reality. I, myself am an extrovert with more introverted qualities. So having to stay home has not bothered me. My anxiety is going full steam ahead just due to not know what is coming next. I do not live alone so that could be why I am not going super stir crazy. I spend my time in different rooms of my house or in the yard with my dogs. I am writing this while sitting outside. we have reached the point it is recommended for you to wear a mask when you leave your house. I don`t leave unless I am needed to. I have the ability to sew so I have made a few masks. They have brought out the worst in me. I feel like my skills are not very good. I have yet to find a pattern I am happy with but they are made for my household should we need them. I have fallen into the trap of online shopping tho. It is bad. I have spent so much money on things to help me reorganize my room. As I am off and I have the time to do it. I feel bad as many are still having to go to work to support my shopping. At the same time, I am glad they are not faced with the uncertainty of their job. I do not know what will come but use your time as you have it. You only live one life.